Sunday, 26 January 2014

Chapter 1 - Fate Or Coincidence?

Moving, Just Keep Moving
Chapter 1

“Do you think he’s interested in me?” I ask turning to Harry as he pushes a pile of folders into my arms.
“And who would that be?” Looking at him I smile and wait, he knows who, but doesn't admit it.
“You know who”, I point my head towards Liam who stands across the hall a gang of girls laughing at his jokes, hanging on to his every word. Harry turns to look, passing a maths book into my arms in the process; I watch his expression as he glances in the gang’s direction, rolling his eyes and shaking his head. Staring into the dark depths of his locker he laughs and proceeds to return to ‘sorting’ the mess, “What? Why do you always pull that face?”
Harry grins, shrugging he closes the locker door, “He’s bad news and you know it. It’s as simple as that”, the bell rings signalling class, “Got to go I’ll call you later, okay?”
“Okay”, Harry must be the only person in school who actually rushes to class, and makes an effort to be there on time. If the bell rings and he’s not sat at his desk, well that just drives him insane.

I reach the English block heading towards the classroom; of course as I enter I notice that half of the class are missing. It’s a Friday afternoon and whilst most kids skip school and head down to the beach, I have no second thoughts about turning up to class. English is my favourite lesson, it baffles me how kids can dismiss it as an uninteresting, unimportant lesson.
“Ah Samantha nice to see you, well done on being one of fourteen students who have decided to attend on this glorious Friday afternoon”, Mr Myles turns to me smiling his curly mop bouncing as he springs across the classroom, “Question for you Samantha, do you know how many students  this classroom should be holding right now?”
I laugh shaking my head, “No sir.”
“Thirty two Samantha, eighteen students have made the great decision of dismissing my lesson. Eighteen bright and intelligent students have headed to the beach. These students are so intelligent that they believe that this behaviour is acceptable, that their papers will not be failed and I will not report their behaviour. Well I have news for them, I am writing out report cards for every single one of them right-“A knock on the door averts our attention, “Liam how nice of you to join us. Make that seventeen.” A sarcastic tone takes over Mr Myles voice, “Was the beach closed today?”
Liam dumps his navy sports bag on the table next to me shaking his head he sniggers, his sandy coloured hair shaking as he does so, “No sir.”
“Then why the hell are you here? In fact I don’t care, just let it be known that you’re friends are now on report cards, take it in your best interest to congratulate them”, smiling at Liam he raises his eyebrows and turns to the whiteboard, “Today we are starting new group projects, don’t get too excited”, he turns his body towards us smiling, pointing his pen in our general direction, “You should be working in pairs, but seen as Liam has turned up that’s kind of dismissed that idea.”
Liam moves his chair out from beneath the desk next to me, “I could leave sir?” No please don’t leave.
“No, no that won’t be necessary Liam, in fact you can work with Samantha”, Oh my freaking god. I can feel his eyes on me, but there is no way I can look up, instead I keep my focus on the notebook between us, that and his muscular, tanned arm that lays lazily on the table just inches from mine. He begins to move his table close to mine, prompting me to stare in his direction, “Liam” he smiles holding out his hand for me to shake.
“Samantha”, I smile and blush.
“Enough of the small talk, I’m pretty sure you've met before”, Mr Myles couldn't be more wrong, Liam has never spoke one word to me, “Just create an A grade piece of work, and on Tuesday you will be given the chance to wow me with your words”, Mr Myles smiled at us simply before striding across the room to his desk, and brushing his slim fit suit before sitting.
Liam grins, pushing his hair away from his forehead, “Right Samantha, how do you want to start this thing?” My god that hair. That sandy, golden, shiny hair…. What am I saying he isn't a Labrador!
“Huh?”
He chuckles, waving his hand in front of me, “Earth to Sam, how would you like to start, should we make a plan of the main points? Then we can research ideas and elaborate on them later?”
“Sure”, the words go in but I’m hardly concentrating, he called me Sam only Dad and Harry call me that. Only those two people know that it is my preferred name, the two people I love more than anyone else in this world. I think of what Harry would say, it’s just a coincidence.
But Harry maybe its fate.
After forty-five minutes of planning and drafting our coursework, Mr Myles calls time on the lesson, “Good work class, you have until Tuesday to finish this piece, so discuss how you will work on it over the weekend and then you may leave.”
Packing my books and paper back into my satchel I turn to face Liam, “I can meet up tomorrow night?”  
He turns to me laughing, “Tomorrow’s a Saturday” he raises his eyebrows, chuckling as if I’d made a joke. Oh yeah he probably has some cool party to attend.
“Oh yeah, forgot for a second there…”
Heading out of the class he turns to me, “Make it tomorrow day and I’m all yours.”
“Yeah okay”, I shout to him as he rushes down the corridor not bothering to turn around.

Monday, 20 January 2014

Number 50

‘I hope I live to be one hundred’, I whisper to myself as I clamber out of bed. The sunlight seeps through my curtains begging to be exposed, tugging them open the warmth hits me like a scorching laser. Opening up my windows wide I peer out focusing on the beach beyond, the sea delicately kisses the golden shore whispering, hushing and calling my name. I peer across my lawn to the vivid green hammock in which my husband sits patiently swinging and waxing our surfboards. At just seven o’clock we jog hand in hand amongst the shells, plunging into the waves and swim into the distance of the glistening turquoise life beyond.
Happy fiftieth’, Hayley my friend sings as she enters our bookstore. The warm air rushes through the old oak door, books waft open continuously, and pages rustle like a peaceful symphony. As I continue to type to the beat of the familiar tune, scents of sea and sand combine with the familiar smell of books allowing me to indulge further.
‘Here’s to another fifty years’, Lucas my husband of twenty five years chimes from across the dinner table. Glasses clink as family and friends cheer, I smile and laugh along as I watch my loved ones. The barbeque sizzles as my son turns the meat, on the table bright salad lies under a blanket of dressing and various cold beverages bubble in jugs. A stack of presents block my daughters view as she tip toes down the patio, soft ribbons, silky wrap, some large, some small.
With the fire burning we sit sipping drinks, guitar strumming and singing to acoustic tunes. The night sky creeps closer, a peach sky invades the blue as the sun swims above the ocean, the sea now slower as its light waves crash against the rocks below.  What a wonderful birthday.



Short Story - Moving, Just Keep Moving



Walking, just keep walking. Don’t look over towards Claire and Sarah who are stood by their lockers with the same disgusted looks plastered on their faces. Walking, just keep walking.  Ignore Harry as he attempts to shove the third cup of coffee he’s bought you that day into your hand. Walking, just keep walking. And when Mrs Henry calls your name from over by the staff room pretend you haven’t heard. Because none of that matters, all you need to do is keep walking.  Run through the school car park, jump into your car and drive, just keep driving.
Driving, just keep driving. Four missed calls from dad and still he keeps calling, the same electronic tone ringing in your ears. Driving, just keep driving. Turn the radio up loud; drown out the sounds of horns and brakes. Driving, just keep driving.  And when your phone rings for the sixth time since ten o’clock ignore it, ignore him and her. Besides it’s unsafe to answer a call when driving, right? So keep on driving. Speed off road, down the winding lane and park up, right near the edge. Then get out and run, just keep running.
Running, just keep running. Let your hair wave crazily in the sea breeze, the curls dropping and knotting. Running, just keep running. Kick the sand behind you; leave delicate footprints imprinted on the ground. Running, just keep running. And when you reach the tip of the waves, watch as the shore kisses the sand, and then kick it. Splash the water; ruin it just like she did. Then run a little more, further, deeper. Stop, rip away your sweater and pumps, before throwing yourself in. Then dive deeper and swim, just keep swimming.
Swimming, just keep swimming. Dunk your head under, deep into the depths of the cold, dark water. Swimming, just keep swimming. Move your body ferociously, until you can no longer feel the cold. Swimming, just keep swimming. And grin as you realise your hair is wet through, laugh as you feel the mascara trickling down your face. Laugh aloud because it’s a mess; another mess she’s caused. Swim a little more, but this time closer to shore. Crawl, crawl and claw at the sand as you make your way through the shallow water. Then watch as they make their way towards you and scream, just keep screaming.
Screaming, just keep screaming. Turn your back on dad as he calls out your name for the fiftieth time in one minute. Screaming, just keep screaming. Shake your head at Harry as he stumbles far behind, coffee cup in hand, pretending to understand. Screaming, just keep screaming. And when you see a skinny frame, with a sorry face, hope it isn’t her. Hope you’ve got it wrong; a mistaken glance muddled by tears. Scream a little more, but this time quieter, weaker.  Glide, glide and aim your hand towards her face. Then laugh at her reaction, a shocked expression, that same shocked expression you witnessed that night, when you were sitting, just innocently sitting.
Sitting, just keep sitting. That’s what you told yourself when she stumbled down the stairs at what usually would be her bed time. Sitting, just keep sitting. Shaking your head in disbelief, a tear spilled down your cheek, as Mr Enderson closely followed, an accomplished look on his face. Sitting, just keep sitting. And when they turned to you and gasped, you closed your eyes. You hoped it was a dream; that it would end if you just kept sitting and wishing.  But then you opened your eyes, wiped away a stray tear, and with eyes bright and wide you stared at her. Directly at your mother, and she knew, knew what a mess she’d made. And that was the first time you laughed at her, not with her at her, you laughed in anger, in pity, in disgust, and realised what you needed to do.

Moving, just keep moving. You walked out of the front door, drove down the highway, parking outside your favourite diner. Moving, just keep moving.  You needed that constant movement, so you ran inside, ordered yourself a strawberry smoothie, and then sang along to the radio. Moving, just keep moving. It was the only way to take your mind away from the thought of her, the only way to guarantee you could stay strong. And when Harry walked in and offered you a cider you kindly declined; not wanting to turn out like her. You sat and laughed as he told jokes, focusing on what you needed to do. Moving a little more, you dragged Harry from his seat. Focusing, focusing on forgetting about your mother.
Wrecked, everything is wrecked. Dropping to your knees with a heavy thud you weep and whimper as he whispers your name. Wrecked, everything is wrecked. Whilst lying in the sand, let Harry hold you tightly whilst clasping your hand. Wrecked, everything is wrecked. And now you are still, no longer moving, no longer focusing. The stillness keeps you sane, it makes you think. It makes you face the truth; she ruined it, and walking, driving, swimming and every other movement cannot change that. So you watch, you watch as her world crumbles around her. And you allow her to whisper a simple sorry and goodbye, before trudging away, over the dunes and out of sight.